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3. Favorite friendship?

  — My favorite Grey’s friendship would definitely be Meredith & Christina. I want to have a friendship that honest and true. I admire them. :) They are also amazing friends, who are always there for each other. They’ve been through a lot and it seems that this plane crash has brought them even closer together (at least it did after Christina found her shoe). Lol. 

3. How old were you when you knew? What was that like for you?

  — This is now when things start getting a little tricky. I think somewhere deep down, I always knew. I just denied it for so long because being gay was not the “normal” thing to be. I was expected to grow up, marry some woman, produce lovely children with her and live out days as such other “normal” couples do. In the back of my mind, I think I knew from the time I was in pre-school. Instead of thinking the girls were pretty, I thought the guys were. But it was just second nature to me. I never thought twice about it. But I don’t think it really clicked until I was in middle school. I would catch myself starring at this guy across the room and thinking about how bad I wanted to see him naked and how much I just wanted to take his face in my hands and kiss him. Suddenly all those times I had thought a guy was cute, or I had butterflies in my stomach when talking to a guy, or wanted to kiss a guy came flooding back and I realized exactly who I was and from there, there was no going back.

At first, it was a little traumatizing. I was scared of how my friends and family would take the news. I was also worried about how I was going to break it to my girlfriend at the time. But once everyone knew, it was liberating. I could finally be me and didn’t have to hide who I was. I could date, kiss and openly admire guys. :) It was the best feeling in the world. 

2. Favorite female character?

  — This may be tougher than yesterdays question. There are so many powerful, amazing female characters on Grey’s. But if I had to choose one I would say that Arizona Robins is my favorite. She’s everything I’ve ever wanted to be. I mean, we’re both out and proud. But she’s a pediatric surgeon (which I’d love to be) and she’s amazing not just with children but with people in general (which I wish I was). She’s in a loving relationship (married) and she has a daughter (with her wife). What more could a person ask for. :) Though Arizona is my favorite, her wife, Calliope (Callie) is a very close second favorite for me. :)

2. Did you have any experience as a child that might have foreshadowed your sexuality?

  — Like something bad, like being raped as a child or something? No. But I did have a lot of moments as a kid where I knew I was different, even if I didn’t know exactly what it was yet. & I had a LOT of moments where I would notice a boy whom I thought was cute and I just knew I wanted to kiss him. But I was pretty much being told from everywhere that those thoughts (or wanna be actions) were wrong. But I was a rebel, I had the thoughts anyways & I liked em’.